A short journey thru Ty's life

Here is Ty at 8 weeks! Our first picture of him...we had no idea if he was a boy or a girl!

Here I am at around 20 weeks I believe...we still didn't know if he was a boy or girl!!

Here I am about 30 weeks. I was getting huge!!!! We knew by now that he was a boy! Hooray!!

April 21st, a very early morning! I was about to pop, and almost 2 weeks late!!

Tyson James arrived at 6:21pm, April 21st, 8lbs 10oz, 21 inches!!

Celebrating Ty turning 1 month old!!

2 months old!!

3 Months! We had done a long road trip, Buffalo, Boston, NYC and Washington DC!!!

4 Months, Ty didn't react to his shots too well :(

5 Months, Go Steelers!!

Six Months!

7 Months, Ty's handsome Christmas Picture!!

8 Months, Christmas Day and standing tall!

9 Months playing in the snow!!!

10 Months, my little prince charming

11 Months, my big boy!!

And of course I'll try and add a 12 month pic tomorrow! I can't believe my little baby is turning ONE tomorrow!!!!!

Ty's First Birthday Party

Tyson had his 1st Birthday Party on April 18th 2010. We will have another small party for him on his actual Birthday, April 21st 2010. It was so much fun and we had everyone that we love there. His friends were there and they looked like they were enjoying themselves. I was stressed that I wasn't doing anything right, since I've never held a party before, but I let it go and tried to enjoy myself. You can see all my pictures on FB but I'll add a few on here.

Thank you to everyone that came. It truly means so much to us to have you all in our lives! We love you!

Feeling down.

Ty has always been a really good eater. He would eat any thing and everything. Clear his plate and then just want more. He was always way above average on the weight charts. But now he just won't eat. He'll take a small nibble here and there but he isn't eating like he used to. I give him all the foods that he likes, I give him new foods, healthy foods...but nothing. He just plays with it or throws it on the floor. I hate meal times now. I used to love them, but now its just so frustrating. I was in tears last night because my baby wouldn't eat. I'm worried that he's going to loose weight and get really skinny. He's not the little chubby baby that he was. He doesn't have his budah belly anymore. I'm just feeling like there is something more I should do but I'm at my wits end and I don't know what to do at all! I never thought Ty would have eating issues. I know some babies do, but Ty was always a piggy and now he refuses to eat anything. I'm worried is isn't going to get the nutrients that he needs, I'm worried he'll get sick. I'm worried. I'm sad, I'm mad...grr. Please Ty eat!!!

Lets talk about hair...again

I don't think I'm ever going to cut his hair. Just because he's a boy doesn't mean he has to have short hair. It may be the norm but I don't care. Lots of little boys look cute with longer hair! I'm not saying that I'll let it grow down to his waist, but I like it how it is now and wouldn't mind it a little longer. Here are some pictures to show that some boys do have long hair, and then I'll add in pics of Ty.

On the left is Kingston Rosdale, his hair is super cute, and Ty's is starting to look like that. I think it still looks boyish.

                             Here is Kate Hudson's son Ryder Robinson, his hair to me is adorable! And still boyish.

And here we have Charlie and Tennyson Crowe, not only are their names super cute, but their hair is adorable! I love this look and I think this is the look we'll go for with Ty's.

See its not too long!!!! Its cute, and its getting pretty wavy at the back which I absolutly LOVE!

Sure when he grows up and he wants to shave it all off, I'll let him. But right now I think the long hair suits him! So I wont let anyone cut it!!!

Next time around

While I was a SAHM I had some free time to build a friendship with some wonderful ladies online. These ladies have helped me thru a lot of things, we help each other out as much as we can and keep each other sane! If only we lived close to each other, we'd be the best of friends, and our kids would be too!
Anyways one of the ladies on there made a post about what she would do differently the next time around. I wanted to write down what I'd do differently too. And there are quite a few things, little things but they would have made a difference.
1) At the hospital I would have taken more pictures of him, and of me with him.
2) I would have layed him in his crib right away, so he'd get used to it.
3) I would have tried everything in my power to breastfeed.
4) I would not have co-slept. Even though I loved every minute of it and think it is a wonderful thing to do, it just made the transistion to crib a lot harder and made for many sleep less nights.
5) I would have kept up with his baby book
6) I would have actually PRINTED pictures out!!! I have all my pictures online, but non printed out. I don't have an album. I'm trying to make a Tyson's first year album on shutterfly, but it is so hard, I have so many pictures! I feel bad not having any hung up around my house :(
7) I would have been in a loving stable relationship and married :) lol

Thanks Sarah for your great posts!!!

Am I really the one to blame?

So a comment from a certain someone (baby daddy Joe) keeps coming up. I am the one who left. Meaning I'm the one who tore our family apart. It really upsets me. It makes me feel like it was ALL my fault. Which I know it wasn't, but I don't want Ty growing up thinking that the reason we aren't together as a family is because I left. Sure I did leave, but it wasn't all completely my decision. I left because I couldn't take it anymore. I wasn't happy, Joe wasn't happy, so that was rubbing off on Ty and he wasn't happy. You can't live your life being un happy all the time. Its not good for you emotionally, or physically. I left because we didn't work out as a couple. As much as I wanted to, we simply didn't mesh. We would fight over the stupidest things, like cleaning, my cooking, whose turn it was to change a diaper....TV, MOBSTERS...FARMVILLE (Stupid!!!!) Joe going out all the time, me sitting at home with Ty all the time...which don't get me wrong, I love doing, but I needed to get out once in a while, and I didn't have that opportunity unless I asked my parents to watch him, which I shouldn't have needed to do when I was living with Joe. He should have watched him more. I see that now. He is a good dad, and I appriciate what he does for Ty, but its time that I need to stop being a push over, and I need to get what I deserve. Ty lives with me almost every day, except for the days that he visits his dad. So this means that he gets fed here every day, diapered, washed, ect...when he goes to his dad's which will now be once a week, I give him breakfast here, pack milk, pack lots of snacks. So the money is coming out of my parents pockets, and mine. We share Tyson, he is both of ours, so shouldn't that mean that the cost of having him should be split equally? Its time I take charge of my life, and Ty's and do something about this. I wish we didn't have to go thru the 'system' but it might need to happen. I want Joe to be in Ty's life, but with out a little help here and there its hard to really 'want' him to be in his life...you know? I'm just rambling here, and I probably shouldn't be. But this is my blog, and I'm done censoring myself, I'm going to tell it how it is. I am sick of hearing that comment every time I ask for a little help. I'm sick of hearing "You are the one who left". Yes I did, but you are the one who helped me make that decision, you were the one who didn't want to change.

Done :) and feeling better!

Pictures!!

I wanted to share a few random pictures, some are from Easter, and some are from Ty's first tme trying ice cream!! They are just too cute not to share, and these are the last few weeks of him before he turns into a big boy! :( Also I am going to get a tattoo. None of my family is going to be happy about it at all! But I have always wanted one, and now I actually have something to get one for. I'm going to get Ty's name on my wrist. If I land a professional job or something, then I can cover it up with a band aid or watch. I going to do it!

He had the cutest shirt on that we found last year at Kohls. Of course I bought him summer clothes last year thinking that he would be huge, since at 5 months he was in 9-12 month clothes. Well of course he slowed right down and his whole closet is full of summer clothes that I don't think he'll fit in to until winter!!

Tyson loved his ice cream!! And it was free!! If they are under a certain height at Brusters then they get a free ice cream! Yum! Ty loves walking around, but all the shoes he has give him blisters! No fun! So he goes barefoot!

Where we live we have some pretty strange golf balls with legs...weird...but they were fun to take pictures with!

And to end it with a bang....REAR FACING ROCKS!

MTV's 16 and Pregnant and Teen Mom

I'm not going to lie. I love these shows. Not only do I love watching them, but I can relate to most of the girls. Sure I'm not 16, but I'm still a young mom going thru some of the struggles that they are facing. The one girl that I relate most to is Maci. Maci was my favorite girl on the original season of 16 and Pregnant and then she was on Teen Mom. I think her story is pretty much the same as mine. Especially when it comes down to her relationship with Ryan and mine with Joe. Both of those boys lacked in some ways or another. Joe used to go out with his friends a lot...every day almost, while I stayed home with Ty everyday...or he would sleep all the time or play mobsters all the time. Not fun for me! Maci's ex Ryan also used to go out often, and never really support her. They lived together, like Joe and I and then she moved back with her parents...like me. I think the problem with our guys was that they didn't see there was a problem which clearly there was. On a community site that I am on Baby Center there is always a debate going on about this show. One side says that it almost promotes teen pregnancy and the other side says that it shows how hard being a teen mother is. I agree with the second side. In the show they show the fun parts of being a mom, but most of it is about how hard it is. I am grateful that they created this show, as I believe that it will make teens think "Do I really want to be in that situation?" Can't wait for 16 and Pregnant tonight! Twins!! Ah I couldn't imagine!

I should have kept my boy intact

What I am about to write some people may not want to read, I'm sure you are all grown ups and the terms I am using are all correct terms and medical terms so it should be fine. I apologize to Ty in advance for letting the whole world know how he is.

I should have kept my boy intact. It was one of those parental decisions that I didn't fully think thru and now regret. When Ty was born, Joe and I made the descion to get him circumcised. It was kind of a no brainer, like "Yea every guy is so he should be too". But thats not the case. Sure its still the 'norm' but the percentage of boys being circumcised is dropping. In 1960 over 80% of men were circumcised, In 1992, it dropped to 77% and in 1996, it dropped to 37%  Percentages.  I think now its split evenly. After the fact that he was circumcised was when I started looking into it. Sure its easier to keep clean, but if you teach the boy how to clean it then he'll be fine. The World Health Organization says that evidence shows that male circumcision decreases the risk of aids. Study. So ok...maybe it could keep him from getting a disease...but what about the risks that could have occured? There were some complications that could have occured when he got it done. He could have gotten an infection, meatitis (which is an inflamation of the penis).  There are more serious complications, such as necrotizing fasitis, which is a bacterial infection that can destroy the muscles, skin and underlying tissue Definition. While being uncircumsised also has a few risks, such as UTI's being at a higher percentage, and penile carcinoma, which is a penile cancer but very rare...studies show its a higher percentage in uncircumsied men. But the underlying problem I have with my desicion was why? What made me do it? I hadn't even researched to find out what would be best for him. I guess I just thought it was the norm. But who was I to chop of part of my sons manly hood? After he got it done it looked so sore...why would I put my son thru that pain? Just to fit in with his friends in the locker room? When he grows up, I bet the ratio of un circumcised men will be more than circumsised men. Its not like doctors in this country go around cutting little girls parts off...although they do in some countries. Was he not perfect the way God made him? Yes he was. He still is but for some reason I let the doctor snip part of him off. I am ashamed of myself for not researching this more before I made my descion. So I ask those who are pregnant with a boy, or are trying then to do your research, and not just make your descion based on the ''normal'' thing to do.

Easter Egg Hunt.....totall fail!

I was so excited to take Ty on his first easter egg hunt today. I bought him a basket, pumped myself up, had the camera ready....but it was a huge flop. Ty is usually the happiest boy on the block. Only ever cries if he is hungry. His schedule must have been off since he was at his dad's last night. We picked up my sister and drove to the church where it was being held. He cried the whole way there. I knew we wouldn't last long! He wouldn't even let me put him down to get a picture of him picking up an egg. I thought he would have so much fun with this as he runs all over the place and picks everything up. Pebbles are his new favorite toy. We even found one in his crib...must have snuck it into his shorts! I was so excited for him to go on his first egg hunt....I know I know....its not what Easter is about...and I plan on teaching him the meaning of it...but its his first easter, we had to do something!! We ended up leaving the hunt with two eggs, which mommy and auntie amanda picked up! Came home and put him straight down for a nap...must have been tired, he's sleeping again now. We did however take some pictures after he woke up. Amanda took them so I'm stealing them from her FB I hope she doesn't mind!